"Do I like them??" "Can I see a future with them?" "Will 'that' bug me too much?" We are always taking inventory, making sure our checks and balances make sense. But what if we just leap and see what happens? Just fall into what is. Truly fall. Take the good with the bad and listen to our heart for what the next step is. We will never have a full blueprint for what is going to happen in our lives and as scary as that can sound, it is also freeing. We can create what we want. WE get to choose. If something doesn't suit us, if our hearts ache at the thought of it, then move on. Our lives are worth something if they are well loved. So start loving. Wherever you are, with whomever you are with. Just accept and let go of all these things you need to "fix". Your life doesn't need fixing. It needs you to accept it, love it and listen to your inklings and you will go far beyond what you ever dreamt.
I am realizing that love evolves. I know this sounds like a simple sentence, but it isn't. We as humans like a routine to a certain extent. We like to know what to expect, and getting into a relationship is no different. We expect the same sparks in the beginning to last a lifetime. Not that they won't.... they will just evolve. Butterflies will feel more like a steady drum beating, fireworks will feel more like a street light always on. We then often get worried thinking there are no longer these abrupt spikes of positive emotion. But that doesn't mean there is any less love... most of the time we are surrounded by more love. More compassion, honesty and safety than we had ever known before. The difference is that we have now gotten used to this love, we almost expect it. Just like you can no longer smell the scent of your own home but to others its apparent (hopefully in a good way...). Your love, if treated right with the right person, will evolve. This doesn't for a second mean there is any less or that it is wearing out. You are just leveling up. Your body is now allowing more love than you ever thought possible. The kind of love that would have scared you away in the beginning, which is why it had to come in waves and flutters. Your love is evolving much like yourself, have faith in its growth and it will never die.
When it comes to differing personalities is there a point of drawing the line? Where someone is so vastly different from you that it appears anything they say or do is offensive. Or is that something that you need to work on within yourself? This idea of opposites attract or that they will help you to create thicker skin, that they were put in your life for a reason...to learn and grow. But when does the learning end and the toxicity begin? Is it due to no boundaries? Or maybe a sensitive heart? When and how do we realize where this line is and how to dance around it?
When it comes to working on ourselves and trying to uncover repressed emotions it can sometimes get to a point where we lose the line in the sand. Where our emotions begin to clamber all over one another and our minds runs ramped thinking that any and everything is a personal attack. Our efforts of trying to not suppress emotions, because that is a big "no no" in the self help world, ended up breeding more. We begin throwing dramatic meanings upon old wounds as a way to make sure what was infected is now free and clear. We then feel like emotional wreaks, sensitive at every turn with moody ups and downs. We lose sight of what the original problem was as we spin in our tornado and blame the house for being swept up in the mix. So how do we free ourselves from this? To once again become grounded and calm. Sitting and listening can help, relaxing your mind and accepting any and everything it throws at you as "amazing" and "cool". Not in a way to disregard your emotions but to not allow them to overtake you anymore. Sometimes this too becomes too much and we need to get out of our mind, release from our body, in that case go for a run. Other times we need to unload to release all we have kept pent up, when that happens journal or tell a friend. No matter what it is, it is okay that you're feeling this way.
Take pride in how far you have come and have faith in how far you can go