Tonight is a night of revelation and change. Out with the old and in with the new, as we welcome to the full pink moon. This is a time of incredible release, letting go what no longer serves you and moving onto things your heart truly desires. The past couple of months have been a bit tumultuous and chaotic, but now things are turning around for the better. We are finally gliding onto new and calmer waters. With all this movement of expansion in our lives comes a greater awareness to who we truly are. Realizing that energy is energy, we can portray every circumstance however we choose. There is no good or bad, it is all how you perceive it to be. There is "good" in every situation and "bad" in every situation, and the contrast of the two allows us to be able to fully embrace the good times with a full heart. In this time of release be gentle with yourself. You have done the best you can and that is more than enough! Now accept your surroundings, give thanks for all the blessings and enjoy the magnificent change to come! <3
When it comes to unexpected events in life, is it possible to never have a bad one again? This may seem to be a bit of a wacky thought at first. Especially since, the majority of things in life seem to "happen to us" rather than being welcomed with open arms. When we begin to look at everything as a way to grow, learn and become stronger, is it possible to completely eliminate that negative mindset? Rather, everything that happens in your life is indeed welcomed with open arms; no matter how "good" or "bad" society views it, it is positively effecting you due to your thinking. We can look at life as a mess of a thing or we can change our awareness to view it more positively. We get what we put out into the world, why not put out greatness?
Trust trickles from my mind, like blood fresh from a knife. Words begin to evaporate into nothingness. Fog ensues, filled with past promises and memories no longer true. Numbing until every emotion is iced over. Putrid poison runs down my throat in an attempt for my brain to leave me alone. Drain all my blood, cloud my mind till black turns to white and I could still not get you out, there is no escaping this time.
"She was a smart girl and then she fell in love". Does love literally make one loose all their previous inhibitions? Apparently along with those inhibitions the brain goes as well. Why does it seem that when we start to fall for someone we begin to fall further from ourselves? Or at least from the outside to others it seems this way. I am sure you have heard the phrase "love is blind", well blind it is, and you're the one that can't see. But why? Why does falling for someone mean we have to loose who we previously were? Especially, if they are supposed to bring out the best in us. But what about if they are? What if this mindless-inhibition-lost-person is who we really are, we just haven't met them yet?
Sitting in all her power. Telling stories of that night, ruining ours. Feeling like a puppet on a string, wobbly in my skin, moving with the wind. Innocence surrounding, her more sober, "oops didn't mean to do that, hope you don't mind". A friend of sorts, with a drunken slur can kill the lives of all she has observed. Men falling at her feet, and she chose me, sitting in love so happily. It takes two to tango, I know this to be true. But never would I have thought it would be you. Betrayed, as blurred events unearth, part of me wishes they remained beneath the dirt. But the truth comes out, it always does. It just stings a little extra knowing she wasn't totally buzzed.
"The morning after nauseating news, running seems like the only option. Sprinting till my heart can no longer keep up and lungs deflate. Sinking into the chilling pavement on the side of the road, wishing to get out of here. Disappear. Start a new, but everything reminds me of you. Music blaring trying to scare thoughts I do not wish to allow. Little red hands become as numb as my body but I continue on, a reminder of my heart, still beating like a drum. Running and walking, running and walking. The privilege to not feel anything. Attempting to smile at the passerby becomes too hard. Happiness has now become an act, feeling like a fraud. Instead, lowering my head to the ground, I wave and walk on. The art of numbing yourself is one I excel upon."
Pulling my body onto his lap, I sit nestled between his legs. With each shake of my shoulders he pulls me closer. Gently running his hand in a calm circle upon my back. Shirt rippling beneath his fingers; catching at the top, to be released once more. Nuzzling his face into the crease of my neck, softly kissing between deep breaths. His salt soaked shoulder strong and steady. My mind spilling out from my lips, amongst gasps, so effortless. Patiently he listens. What I did to deserve this, I will never know. A love that never grows cold. A love I hope to forever hold.
When it comes to relationships is it okay to judge another based off how fast or slow they go with their partner? Many naturally have opinions if things aren't like their own relationship. This is fine, obviously everyone does it. But should we continue? What if instead of judging a friend and adding in our two sense we smile and share the happiness of a relationship we believe is going too fast? Embody the joy they give off telling you about all the love in their life. Or on the other hand, zip our lips about a relationship that is moving slower than our own. Instead support them and be happy for their enjoying each others time. Everyone experiences situations differently and has different beliefs; which is one of the beautiful things about life, but can also be our biggest detriment as a species. Because rather than using that unique mindset and playing into our authenticity we try and fit ourselves into a box. Be like everyone else. Taking advice we don't truly believe in and saying things we would never normally say. All for what? To have the same relationship as our best friend? But how many times have we criticized things in their relationship and in turn been thankful we don't have a relationship like that? This never ending circle of trying to fit in but also being thankful we aren't like others. Why don't we try to do the latter? Not in a "I am better than you" mindset. More of a, I am happy in my own skin, life and relationship. Take that confidence back, know that your relationship is just that, YOUR own. If you don't like the advice of others you don't have to take it. Stop feeling like every opinion given is a command of what to do next. This is your life, allow your timeline to unfold how you want.
Take pride in how far you have come and have faith in how far you can go