When it comes to trusting your gut instincts does there ever become a time where it can become toxic? Where you are almost over aware of your feelings and emotions and begin to second-guess any and everything. Thinking the reason behind every emotion felt is a gut instinct, telling you to get out of that situation, move here, be friends with this person, etc. You become so hyper vigilant you begin to feel unsteady in every aspect of your life because you are just waiting for the shoe to drop. Or rather not waiting at all. Not seeing what the future may hold in whatever situation you’re obsessing about, but rather you almost want to beat it to the punch and make sure that you aren’t left looking silly or like a failure. This then in turn makes listening to your gut so confusing. Cause you don’t know if it is your natural instincts or your ego speaking. You over stimulate yourself to the point of not allowing yourself to be happy with anything. All of this subconscious but still none the less valid. So in this case how does one lessen the load and only hone in on truly what their gut is telling them? I guess not honing in at all. Trusting that you are where you are meant to be and that the Universe/God/Buddha, etc. will alert you if change is needed. For this brief time while you relax this overwhelmed feeling of not trusting where you are, look outside yourself. Mediate often, stretch and do yoga, laugh with friends and family, do things you enjoy and that will take your mind off of this worry. The natural trust in yourself will return and with that so will your instincts.
My mom is:
Strength, a warming smile and comforting hug. Someone who is effortlessly kind and sweet but can still hold her own. The reason our house is a home. The epitome of everything I hope to one day be. Teaching me to be polite, please and thank you’s all day and night. Never once making me feel alone, even in the scariest times I know she will be my hand to hold. She showed me how to stand up for myself and not want to be anyone else. My biggest supporter, telling me to follow my heart through the good, the bad and the times I felt like falling apart. She knows all my secrets and inside jokes. Always helping me to learn and grow through stories and experiences some wouldn’t want to own. There to always offer advice with no judgement or hidden price. She is open and honest about the life she leads. She is an inspiration everyday to me. The most welcoming smile and hug you won't ever want to leave. She and I can talk for hours, forgetting about minutes, seconds and place we need to be.
She is my best friend, my forever hero and the epitome of the woman I hope to one day be. To the fearless, fiery and kind-hearted mother that raised me, I will love you until my heart no longer beats.
Long day, lots of talking, computer screens, stale coffee. Coming home to open arms, a calm demeanor and steady heart. Never would I have thought it could be, that someone like you would love someone like me. Coiled up to your chest, hand on my head, running through each strand, ridding the days end. Simple moments I will cherish forever. I like doing life with you, the longer the better.
Take pride in how far you have come and have faith in how far you can go