Let me let you in on a little secret.....sometimes I talk to myself. Not is a delusional, psychopath sort of way, just a fantasy. Where Fairytales do come true. Now to some I may sound like I truly am delusional, and if that's true, then maybe I am just a little bit. For me its a world filled with all sorts of people, different shapes and sizes, that have a dream. The women are sure of themselves and know what they want. As for the men, the men, well they are as follows: truly dream worthy, they make you forget your past, they know how you are feeling just by looking at you, they cuddle you when needed,they they protect you, but still let you breathe,they know how to truly let a women be a women, and that is to let her be. Now with saying all this I have shown you a bit of my own Fairytale world, everyone has one, you just have to figure out yours.
"All a girl really wants is for one guy to prove to her that they are not all the same"-Marilyn Monroe
Why is everything so complicated? Why do we second guess things? What happened to real love? Real,passionate kiss, under the stars, kind of love? I think Marilyn is right, every girl does want that,in her own way, so why doesn't it always happen? Will there ever be a man to make us believe this is true? What happened to winning a girl over? Now I am not saying you need to lay your jacket across a puddle for her.... but if she asked, would you?
When we are so delved into a situation it makes it hard to listen to something or someone telling us otherwise. If they truly have your best interest at heart why not listen to them?Or does that almost mess with your "fate" a bit? By putting your relationship into someone else's hands to deal with,does that mean we aren't getting the intended fate that is supposed to be sent our way? And say we don't take the advice, what happens then? A couple months later your friend or loved one gets to say " I told you so" and your left beating your self up for not listening to them. Do we sometimes need those people to guide us in the right direction? When we are so deep into our own love life or situation we become blinded, it's like being in a burning building, you can't see things clearly. The real question is do you need a firefighter to come rescue you or do want to find a way out yourself?
Females get bashed all the time for being needy, but are we really THAT needy? Guys are also needy, but they just don't express it in the same way that we do. So why are we the ones to be punished for wanting something or having expectations? I think it is perfectly fine for a girl or women to want something, as long as its not over the top. Wanting or needing, a man to come in on a white horse with bells and whistles going off, and then for him to get off his horse and get down on one knee just to unveil a giant diamond ring is a bit much I think. Where a more appropriate situation would be to want or need, a man to be more thoughtful and romantic about the present he gives you, rather than just getting the most expensive thing in the store. Now you may be thinking does she even know what guys are like? They don't like to really think too deeply into feelings and things. My comeback to that is yes, I understand that very well, but I also know that a guy that is truly in love will do anything to make the women, or girl in his life happy. I personally don't think that is too much to ask for. Hey! I am saving the guy some money by not making him go get something that is wicked expensive. Long story short Women generally have emotional and material needs. By emotional I mean the need to feel safe. Guys also have emotional needs, but in addition to that they have physical needs. Guys emotional needs are to feel wanted and excepted. We all basically want and need to same things, we just word them differently.
Why do we stay with someone when all they keep doing is breaking our heart over and over again? I have heard its because when that person is good to you, they are so good that you don't want to loose the feeling they give you. But is that enough to go through all the the heartbreak and turmoil? Why are we a glutton for punishment? Why can't we find someone that is good to us and that won't break our heart like its a routine? Can we find someone who won't cause tears to fall, but wipe them as they comfort us? If we can.....where?
What is it exactly? I couldn't tell you, because everyone has a different way of achieving happiness. It could be a big or small thing that makes you happy. Sometimes its getting that one job you have been striving for your whole life. It could be falling in love with someone who you can be yourself around. It could be the fact that your able to walk outside in nature for the day on a hiking trip. Whatever your definition is, find it. After all isn't that just one of the three things everyone searches for in life? Happiness?
I cry, but on the inside. It's not something you can see. Is it just me? Am I the only one? Am I strong? Or am I weak? A tear won't fall from my eye, but I am slowly dying on the inside. Up go the walls....
Feeling confused and a bit scared of whats to come..... My life right now is perfectly fine. That is essentially a good thing, but I am just scared of whats to come. Is this as momentary pause in the universe, its just catching its breath for a day, or is it a good thing? Can everything ever go right in our lives and if it does, do we have to question it? Why are we constantly waiting for the worst? Once I have a perfect relationship with someone I start to think, "its too good to be true", when is someone going to come popping out and say "just kidding", I know that I am not the only one who thinks this. But should I be? Is it my fault that bad things happen to me due to the fact that I am always on alert for them to come jumping out? If yes, how do I stop?
How do you move on from having your heart shattered into a bunch of little pieces? This is all due to the fact that for once in your life you trusted someone with your secrets and let your innocent self show, and they took it as a joke. How and where are you supposed to go from there? You sit in your room and gorge on a variety of chips and chocolate, while watching your favorite romantic movie. As you are doing just that you are wondering why the jerk who did this to you couldn't be like the incredibly sweet, charming and attractive man in the movie; and lastly, how and why you had ever trusted that idiot in the first place.
After all don't they all start off like that amazing sweet, charming, and attractive guy in the movie? My question is why? Why can't guys just be themselves and only themselves when meeting someone they are interested in?They don't show you who they truly are because of the same reason you are sitting, locked up, in your room all day with that movie. Heart Break.
Take pride in how far you have come and have faith in how far you can go