Speaking from experience, or lack of, love confuses the hell out of me, and I don't think I am alone in my thinking. How someone can be so blissfully happy that they laugh at any and everything, to one day not even crack a smile at the wittiest of jokes. Wanting to be surrounded by any and everyone that displays it, to not wanting to be out in public for fear of having a melt down due to PDA.Why is this? You guessed it, love. This feeling or expression that takes over our every being and can make us the happiest or most miserable person on the planet. Love in movies is pretty much always shown in a positive light. But what about the dark side that never creeps through the tv screen but, somehow still finds you? Waking you in such agony it's hard to sleep. Eating becomes a job rather than a pleasure. Just being, hurts, as you have to put on a "happy" face and show everyone your "ok", because no one likes to deal with someone falling apart. Harsh, buts it's reality. Sometimes that's the hardest part, not even the loss of whomever you loved, but to then realize your "friends" are no where to be found. So why do we do this to ourselves? Mostly I believe it's because everyone wants to feel they belong in some way. For you hopeless romantics, it's to find your soulmate. My last question is, is it worth it?
Alright, my last blog post has been running through my head for a couple of days and I would like to say that what I wrote was wrong and I am sorry. I was never trying to say go ahead and cheat! As the days went on and I could think about it the more I put myself in the shoes of the woman in the relationship. How horrible it would be if I was that woman. How I finally found someone that I really liked and they liked me back and now someone else is trying to weasel their way between us. I would hate that, and if my boyfriend reciprocated to the other woman, I think that would be the most hurtful part of it all. I have always been strongly against cheating but I was blinded for a minute, as many of us get, when we start to fall for someone. I am completely over him and found that once he told me he had a girlfriend (which was a couple days after we started talking) that I was no longer interested in being in a relationship with him, I just liked the attention. So I am very sorry if I offended anyone, and I would just like to say a big thank you for continuing to read my blog, I promise no more bad posts!
Everyone dreams of being in there own version of a fairy tale, no one dreams of being the other woman. Trying to figure out if you came along right at the time when they were already debating on ending things with the other person and you just gave them a nudge; or if you are "the other woman". If the person told you already that they were attracted towards you but dating someone else, is it stupid to agree to be friends? Will that only end badly for you because now you have to sit and suffer in the "friend zone"? Or maybe they will realize you are the person they actually want to date and break it off with the significant other? Now I am talking about if the significant other is just dating them, not married to them. Would it really be that bad to be the girl on the other side, or "the other woman"?
When you look at someone and your heart jumps into your throat. When you can just sit next to them but there are millions of sparks flying at the possibility of touching their arm on the arm rest. When you feel this way is there any going back? Any chance you too can just "be friends"? Is it stupid to even try? How can you dull down your uncontrollable indescribable attraction?
Take pride in how far you have come and have faith in how far you can go